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WHO HE? – A short story

Published April 6, 2017 by Nan Mykel

When Trish entered the Front Room, Cassie was already in the booth, waiting. Both smiled broadly,  glad to  see the other after being briefly separated on this, their first day of classes as freshmen roommates. Being from the same small town in Ohio, they felt a special comaraderie–or safety–in the others’ company.  They had both wanted Journalism 101, but Cassie narrowly missed the registration deadline, so she settled for World Literature.

“But look, they’re both taught by a man named Johnson, so maybe that’s not so bad,” Cassie joked.  Although Johnson is a common name, they wondered if they would have the same professor, but Cassie hadn’t thought there was much in common between the two academic subjects, and decided they would be experiencing two entirely different professors.

Trish had been feeling fortunate to have made the registration deadline for the journalism class until she discovered it was at 8 a.m.  Today they grabbed a late lunch from the cafeteria line and got down to it.  “Well,” Cassie asked, “are they the same? How old was your professor?”

Trish frowned and rubbed her brow, thinking.  “It’s hard to say…35? 45? Maybe 50.”

Cassie sighed as though in disbelief. “Surely there’s a difference between a 50-year old man and one 35! In what way did he seem young and what made him seem old?”

“His dress, for one thing. He wore blue jeans and a collarless shirt, and loafers.”

Cassie paused to drink her tea, then nodded. “So did mine. Maybe there’s a kind of dress code the first day, to make the students feel more comfortable…”What about his hair? Does he still have it?”

Trish seemed to smile inwardly. “Does he ever! He has a full head of gorgeous dark hair with just a touch of silver in it you can see when he’s up close.  Maybe that’s what made me think of him being older.”

Cassie stirred her tea and asked, “You were up close to him?”

Another secret smile. “Just when he walked back and forth among the students, and stopped to make a point….Was your professor easy to hear?”

“Oh yes” Cassie answered. “He would expound in a loud voice, often looking fervently at the ceiling like he was communing with God, or trying to. He really gets excited about the early civilizations, and knows Greek. Now that I think of it, maybe he was trying to communicate with the  whole bunch of Greek gods.”

Trish  laughed. “Sounds like a winner…How do you know he ‘knows Greek’?”

“He told us, and said a few words in what I guessed was Greek.”

“So it sounds like your Dr. Johnson is an enthusiastic hippie type too. He must love his subject.  How old does he seem to you?”

“Well, older than 35,  definitely.”

Trish was curious. “Based on what?”

“Maybe some of it’s the subject matter.  He seems so entrenched in the ancient world, and so knowledgeable.”

Trish nodded vehemently. “You got it. Maybe it’s my Johnson’s enthusiasm for current events that’s rubbed off on him and makes him seem possibly 35.

Cassie closed her eyes in order to re-vision her literature professor. “He’s got all his hair all right, but I didn’t notice any silver streaks. By the way, mine is about six feet tall and wears blue jeans, but I didn’t notice his shirt. How about yours?”

Trish said, “He’s tall, too.

“Well, is he good-looking?”

Trish shrugged. “Yeah, if you like men who work out a lot. His muscles seem weird on a college professor.”

“Any tattoos?…Sorry, just joking. What color are his eyes?”

“Oh yes, I forgot. When he gets these ideas that make him stand up straight and begin to walk back and forth he opens his eyes real wide and you can see the white of his eyes. Kinda spooky. And he has very dark eyes that scan the class a lot, as though he’s counting the students or looking for one who didn’t show.” Cassie smiled at her own words, then asked, “Does he have a cough?”

“A cough?” Trish puzzled.

“Yeah, my Johnson does. Like he smoked.”

“I didn’t notice. There was too much discussion going on in class.”

Cassie perked up, curious. “Like what?”

“Oh, you know; liberal stuff. Like how corporations are strangling good journalism, and how something has happened to the milk of human kindness.”  Trish paused. “I think we have to face it; they must be different Johnsons.”

That settled, the two friends were picking up their trays to leave when the sight of a professor entering the lunch line caught their attention. “That’s him,” they whispered to each other, as the tall African American faculty member pushed his tray down the line.

 

Health Nut – A Poem

Published April 4, 2017 by Nan Mykel

HEALTH NUT

First let me get this off my chest:

I’m part animal and old’s the rest.

A cow’s valve is pumping my breath;

while a pig’s valve’s staving off death.

 

And you’ll see why

I try

To take care of my self.

 

I was going to the boonies

That night to catch me some goonies

in the tunnel that’s haunted,

while feeling undaunted.

 

But a stitch in my chest said go,

check it out now, don’t delay.

So as a good health nut I drove

to Urgent Care, just over there,

 

where  the doc

jumped up and down

in his trim green gown

and with a medical frown

 

called an  ambulance

while I sat in a trance

thinking why can’t I drive

round the corner myself?

 

ER let me stay  all day ,

Out of the way

While emergencies

came and went.

 

It was late and it was dark

When I asked on a lark

If I could now go

and surprised, they said “Sho.”

 

No wheelchair was needed,

I just walked  the field

of gopher holes in the dark

to UC, where I had parked.

 

Why why why did this happen to me?

And then I thought of pay back.

While dizzy, on my last UC visit,

I’d had the bad manners to

barf in his trash.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Venom – A re-blog

Published April 3, 2017 by Nan Mykel

I’m re-blogging because this so well reflects what healing survivors experience.

TheDarkestFairytale's avatarThe Darkest Fairytale

Poison under my skin
Drips to the fingertips,
Like acid to this paper
Writing my apocalypse.
It burns and scolds
With flames to ashes,
It’s a nuclear reaction
As light & dark clashes.
The world injected me
With all this venom,
Turning innocence
Into a deadly weapon.
A product of my past
The tortured castaway
Haunted by the images
Forced to live another day.
Tarnished with poison
Yet filled with gold.
They can’t inject my heart
As my soul won’t be sold.

K

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Remarkable–Don’t Look at the Boss?

Published April 2, 2017 by Nan Mykel

 

Reflections for Child Sex Abusers

Published April 1, 2017 by Nan Mykel

 

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WAS YOUR VICTIM AWARE…

where babies come from?

how the body parts work?

what sex is?

how to say no?  (There was a power differential)

who she or he could tell?

what would happen after her telling?

that his or her normal developmental stages were being stunted?

that family and friends might blame the victim and hold him or her  responsible for what was happening?

they might avoid sexual activity in the future even with appropriate sexual partners?

that they would carry shame for a long time or forever for your actions?

why you were molesting him or her?  Were you aware?

of the harm you were causing to his or her future ability to trust?

that this was not  a loving hug?

she was being valued as an object, not a person?

that she must carry the secret or face dire consequences?

that her psycho-social development was being sabotaged?

(You are invited to add others in your comments)

 

 

 

 

Dreaming yourself to sleep re-blog

Published March 29, 2017 by Nan Mykel

If you’e insane that makes two of us! I’m reblogging with a referral to an interesting article:  Jellinek, Augustus. Spontaneous Imagery.  American Journal of Psychotherapy,  1949,  3, 372-391.  In addition: Waking Dreams, by Mary M. Watkins, Harper & Row, 1976.  I don’t want to detract from the beauty of the poem, but the topic of imagining is a welcomed one to me.

Night Image: A Poem from the Past

Published March 29, 2017 by Nan Mykel

I open my door                        

and see a cow

chained to the back

of a pick-up,

trotting and stumbling

to keep up,

caught

in the headlights

of a sheriff’s car

close

at her heels.

Alongside, bands of

children run excitedly,

shouting.

My door shuts,

too late,

the image already

inside.

Later I hear she was

an escapee from the

stock yards, and

subsequently

slaughtered.

He Sang in His Sleep

Published March 29, 2017 by Nan Mykel

While discarding more of my overflowing files, I came across the following, from a distant cousin:

“My grandfather was the one who sang hymns in his sleep, but never sang when he was awake. He stayed with my parents quite a bit after his wife died,  so I got to hear him sing while he was sleeping many times.  Some people talk in their sleep, but he would sing. Never heard of anyone else that sang in their sleep.”  (Nor have I!)

 

 

WHAT SHOULD I MAKE OF THIS?

Published March 27, 2017 by Nan Mykel

I’ll be “cleaning out stuff” until I die, so hang on.  Last night I came across an old journal entry from about 1973:

“At Nikki’s I enjoyed talking with Bob’s parents. M.E. told about a time that they stayed in a haunted house. They stayed with her brother who had temporarily changed houses with an Episcopalian minister. The house was at the beach. They didn’t know it was haunted until they started hearing a baby crying–it came from all around them. Jeffrey was so frightened he kept saying, “In the name of Jesus be gone!” over and over and finally it quit til just before they left. Then they learned that the Episcopal minister had wanted a respite from the haunting. Once while they were there two priests visited and one said, “I can tell this house is haunted, isn’t it?”  The house was next to a church and old graveyard and a child’s grave was near the house. M.E. worried for a long time at the idea that a baby could be trapped as a ghost. Nikki mentioned the legend of putting a stake through the heart to let out the spirit. “

I Didn’t Know It, But…

Published March 26, 2017 by Nan Mykel

On Wednesday, March 22, when I posted “Survivor Survival Manual” and listed  one of the survival tips as reading “Love After Love,” by Derek Walcott, he had just died the previous week, Saturday, March 17, 2017.  In my posting I did not bother to include the poem itself, but now I will.

 

LOVE AFTER LOVE

The time will come

when, with elation

you will greet yourself arriving

at your own door, in your own mirror,

and each will smile at the other’s welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.

You will love again the stranger who was yourself.

Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored

for another, who knows you by heart.

Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,

peel your own image from the mirror.

Sit. Feast on your life.

 

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