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I Had a Dream

Published December 15, 2015 by Nan Mykel

As an incest survivor who is 80 years old and who has written a book about it last year, I thought it interesting that my father is still so alive and ornery in my dreams, at least last night.

The most interesting thing I guess is that not only did he want to kill everybody, but that I screamed for my mother to help me, and she did.

I WONDER IF….

Published December 14, 2015 by Nan Mykel

When our dreams go so fluidly from one setting and action to another and back again: can the two hemispheres have different dreams simultaneously? Maybe they morph back and forth from time to time.

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INCEST – what do you think

Published December 10, 2015 by Nan Mykel

When I wrote FALLOUT: A Survivor Talks to Incest Offenders, I was unwilling to take a stance on whether the victim should “tell” or not.

“Some readers may be surprised that I don’t give victims advice as to whether to tell or not but only suggest an alternative via escaping the incestuous situation. There are several reasons for this. First, the justice system is flawed; enough said. Second, the family suffers economic hardship, often losing the house and car, both vital to continual survival. Third, the victim experiencing additional guilt. Fourth, too much taxpayer money is not only going down the drain , but in many instances doing harm, as inmates become hardened by the prison experience. Fifth, incarceration doesn’t seem to solve the problem.” (p 261).

“The victim cannot seek support in deciding whether to report or not, and is actually as trapped as she feels, especially with the current reporting laws.

“When incest is suspected, social workers usually urge victims to ‘tell,’ so the family member can get the help he needs,” they are doing their job but misleading the victim.”

“According to Gaddini (1983, 357), “Years after the incest, survivors who did not report usually wished they had, and those who did report wished they had not.” (Quoted by Mykel, 162).

 

 

BOOKOPHILE

Published December 10, 2015 by Nan Mykel

Not all her lovers had looks

because you see they were books.

Their rendezvous was the shelf

where she’d clasp him to herself,

then peek under the cover

of her new paper lover.

By the time she checked him out

there was no longer any doubt;

despite what the critics said,

she was taking him to bed!

Has anyone had this experience?

Published December 10, 2015 by Nan Mykel

About once a month, for a number of years now, I have woken myself in the morning by either the SOUND of three loud knocks, a phone ringing, a non-existent doorbell ringing, or my cell phone ringing.  This morning someone softly said my name.  To the best of my knowledge, this is the only time I hallucinate.

FREE ARTICLES

Published December 8, 2015 by Nan Mykel

(Free if you’re willing to accept a lot of them, that is.)  After publishing FALLOUT: A Survivor Talks to Incest Offenders, I’m left with a box full of research articles I xeroxed when writing my book. I’ll send them postpaid if you’ll take them and love them.

 

Nan

Soothing Poem

Published December 2, 2015 by Nan Mykel

By Derek Walcott:

 

LOVE AFTER LOVE

The time will come

when, with elation

you will greet yourself arriving

at your own door, in your own mirror,

and each will smile at the other’s welcome

and say, sit here. Eat.

You will love again the stranger who was yourself.

Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored

for another, who knows you by heart.

Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,

peel your own image from the mirror.

Sit. Feast on your life.

The Red Cat

Published December 1, 2015 by Nan Mykel

When we named the new red kitten we didn’t realize the importance of cat names. In ignorance, we named him after his most frequently displayed behavior. We named him “Lil’ Rascal.”

Later, when for a variety of reasons it seemed most sensible and kindest to give him to my son and his family who had just moved to a new town, we were stuck with trying to pawn off a cat whose name did not bode well. At that point he underwent a name change, to “Sweetie.”

My youngest daughter was assured she could see Sweetie (aka Lil’ Rascal) whenever she visited her brother Tim’s family in the nearby town. (One of a pair of their kitties had been struck by a car and they had promised my granddaughter that it would be replaced when they moved.)

It was several days after we waved goodbye to Tim and a howling Sweetie that I received the terse message: Sweetie had disappeared, and despite phone calls and telephone pole postings, he had not been found. Tim just wanted to alert me that our red cat may be history.

Caution suggested that I postpone informing my youngest about Sweetie’s missing status. As it turned out, it was a wise choice.

Beth, my daughter-in-law, had gone in one direction to search for Sweetie, and my son and granddaughter had headed the other way. In Beth’s path lived a woman who worked as a veterinarian. After listening to Beth’s story, she promised to consult with a friend who was a cat communicator and get back to Beth.

The next day the phone rang and Beth was advised that Sweetie was alive, and under a nearby deck. He liked the new house but was offended that he hadn’t been told of the move in advance. In order for Sweetie to return,  Beth and Tim should concentrate very hard on sending Sweetie an apology for not having prepared him for the move. Tim refused to do so, but agreed that Beth could use his name.

Subsequently Beth–a full profess0r with a Ph.D.–sent thought waves overflowing with apologies from both her and Tim, inviting him to please return to his new home.

Beth’s parents had not seen the new house, and were relaxing on the deck after a tour as Beth described the ordeal with the missing Sweetie. She was in the midst of describing his disappearance when Beth’s father interrupted her. “Is it that cat there?”  Beth turned to see Sweetie seated in the corner, nonchalantly licking himself over his shoulder.

A couple of days later, during rushed preprations at dinner time, Sweetie began complaining vociferously about something, and Beth set him outside. Within an hour there was a knock on the door.

Both the vet and her husband stood beaming with pleasure and goodwill. The vet, who was holding Sweetie, proudly announced, “We found your cat!”

After that, Sweetie was kept inside for several days, made friends with the resident house cat, and found peace and eminence from atop the family room’s very high mantel.

c. Nan Mykel

 

 

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