…you were about to die and were overpowered by a great need to get everything inside expressed in a hurry? I’m not worried about the dying, but about not squeezing everything out first. I find myself making several collages at the same time, re-starting my genealogy program, editing another video of years past and writing here. Wait, wait…I want to tell you something else…
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Don’t Read This
Published March 6, 2019 by Nan Mykel
It’s a “poor me” post. I don’t like those myself. In the therapy group I was in (as a participant) we would always begin the meeting by describing how we feel, while acknowledging that most of us feel several different ways at the same time. I’m shedding a tear or two for me, which isn’t usual these days, so I know I’m feeling sad. I feel like I’m a number of uncooked hard peas on a flat plastic platter. The slightest tilt and I roll one way and then another, not falling entirely off the platter, but shifting off center time and again. I shouldn’t have told bloggers I’m old. No one wants to be tainted by old, but I’m still loyal to truth, or what seems to be truth. I’m lonely and avoidant, not a happy combination.
I don’t want to fall into criticizing myself–I do enough of that. I write but realize that I can’t talk about what matters. I don’t know if that was always true. Years ago I decided I won’t ever commit suicide. That frees me up not to even consider it. Guess I’ll get back to my Ann Perry book. The image above is my current screen saver. Google says it’s from the brickwork site, but I got it by going to wood collages. The tot was from an innocent world.
Power of the Pattern
Published March 5, 2019 by Nan MykelGut to gut.
the need to hurt; the being hurt
get out, get out! How to get out
this entirely hurting place
in such a state so to continue
get out, get out! How to get out
unpluralling the negation
in such a state so to continue
keeping on and on withdrawing
unpluralling the negation
the recurrant hurting, smarting
keeping on and on withdrawing
undeserving of living
the recurrant hurting, smarting
suffering thuds, the silence dull
undeserving of living
of withholding from inflicting.
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First draft for Dverse Poetry Form Month of the Pantoum.
Strong constructive criticism please.
To the Tune of “Help Me Make It Thru the Night”
Published March 4, 2019 by Nan MykelI CAN’T
I can’t play hopscotch any more
Nor skate across an icy floor.
I know headstands would break my neck
I drove my car and caused a wreck.
It’s hard to write a funny verse
‘specially when you’re glum and terse.
I wonder if I’ll ever see
A poem that’s sadder than my knee.
Oh I know it could be much worse—
I could have Trumpkin as my nurse,
Pointing at me and saying he
Would never make a pass at me.
BUT
Now I don’t have to clean my plate
Or remember to stand up straight
Oh what fun to say shit and damn
While chasing Mary’s little lamb.
Yet no one tucks me in at night
Or hugs me as my mother might.
Home made peach ice cream’s the best
I’d not swap it for all the rest.
I STILL KNOW
Little orphan Annie can say
Watch out for the Goblins today
They’re bigger than ever
And terribly clever—
Citizens United foretold
The capitalist manifold
That can squeeze you to death,
Smirking with glee at your last breath.
I guess there’s a Devil after all
Call him a Goblin, you say?
But the evil’s outrageous,
And it’s even contagious!
GOOD LUCK
For the next century—
I’m outta here.
JUST JOKING
Though not very funny, I guess
The whole thing’s a horrible mess.
Oh I’m moved now to barf
Do watch out for my scarf.
NEXT SCENE
Maybe it’ll be better after
My next round trip down home.
I’ll be pushing up sod
Only second to God
You watch; I’ll be back.
Billionaires Get to Enjoy Prison?
Published March 3, 2019 by Nan MykelIs this why the “Corporate Persons” unleashed by the Citizens United ruling aren’t afraid of prosecution?
Excerpt from Gronda Morin’s blog:
“The FBI had prepared a 53-page sex crimes indictment for Epstein in 2007 that could have sent him to prison for life, according to the Herald. Instead, he cut a deal with Alexander Acosta, then the US attorney in Miami, which allowed him to serve just 13 months — not in federal or state prison, but in a private wing of a Palm Beach county jail.”
“He was granted work release to go to a “comfortable office” for 12 hours a day, 6 days a week, despite the fact that the Palm Beach Sheriff’s Department prohibited work release for sex offenders.”
The War Between the States
Published March 3, 2019 by Nan Mykel
Bob M. recalls hearing stories about neighbors watching the battle of Gettysburg as it was being fought. He says that “My
great uncle Ned used to tell my father the story of actually watching the Battle of Gettysburg! Ned was born in 1857, and used to tell my dad the story of climbing a hill and watching the battle when he was 6 years old. I have since learned that half the town of Emmitsburg, Md., climbed that hill and watched that battle. They even had telescopes set up–Indian Lookout was the name of the hill. Hearing the story from my aunt and dad makes me feel very close to history — only second hand to an eye-witness account.
Alma told me, ” Granddaddy Townsend saddled his horse and rode to Scruggs and voted and died that night….Grandfather Robert… fought in the Civil War. He didn’t get hit but almost died from fever. He said as he rode off to enlist, “We’re going to lose because we’re wrong.”
One of our culture’s bugaboos is the tendency to lump and stereotype.
Excellent Excerpt
Published March 3, 2019 by Nan Mykel12. nlunny
if you didn’t know a language how would you think?
30 Amazing Things That Get Mind-Boggling If You Really Think About Them
DSM V from Alter Net 3-3-19
Published March 3, 2019 by Nan MykelLance Dodes: Mr. Trump has a long history that proves his diagnosis. If you consider the 7 traits that define Antisocial Personality Disorder in the DSM-5, he meets every one of them:
1. Failure to conform to social norms with respect to lawful behaviors.
2. Deceitfulness, as indicated by repeated lying … or conning others for personal profit or pleasure
3. Impulsivity or failure to plan ahead
4. Irritability and aggressiveness
5. Reckless disregard for safety of self or others.
6. Consistent irresponsibility, as indicated by repeated failure to sustain consistent work behavior or honor financial obligations
7. Lack of remorse, as indicated by being indifferent to or rationalizing having hurt, mistreated, or stolen from another.
1895 Emergency Averted
Published March 2, 2019 by Nan Mykel1895 S. L. Goff’s cow falls into a well. She broke one horn, but was rescued with a block and tackle.
Bedford County, Virginia
A Picture Is Worth More than… from Gronda Morin
Published March 2, 2019 by Nan Mykel
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