My youngest daughter,,,

Posted on May 6, 2018 by

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About Nan Mykel

I used to think I would be a child prodigy, but then I got old. Formerly I had fantasies of rubbing elbows with cultural and academic leaders but that did not come to pass because I did not become a cultural or academic leader or any other kind of leader, for that matter. I am not even an "Alpha Dog," a term learned from a friend who had to become "Alpha Dog" in order to influence her own pet. (When gazes lock, she never looks away.) For years I expected to become a published author, but in passing I could not avoid the fact that I had little to contribute to the world's bulging dumpsters. I'm embarrassed to report that I also considered my primary process artistic productions powerful, rather than mildly neurotic. Which is not to say that I disrespect myself, only that I am beginning to doubt my potential for making a mark on the world. If I focus on strict self discipline I may be able to keep my garbage removed on a weekly basis, to keep the kitty box changed, the clothes cleaned, the dog watered, fed and walked, but that just catches me up to the starting mark again. When writing I physically grapple with words, wrestling them from their indifference into attempted chunks of awareness. I sit heavily on my chair; I breathe in artificially cooled air; my ear drums note the tap tap of the keyboard and the steady uninterrupted sound of the air conditioner, What is that sound? The roar of the ocean from 30 yards away...Inside, my thoughts are are balls in an electronic game machine, bouncing hither and yon from lever to lever. I am a little grim and intent until I recall a dream related by a black man in the prison where I once worked. He said that when he was a small boy, back home, he dreamed he was standing on his front porch pissing, and that he suddenly found himself pissing stars...
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11 Responses to My youngest daughter,,,

  1. Frank Hubeny says:
    May 6, 2018 at 11:10 pm

    Beautiful photos.

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  2. petrujviljoen says:
    May 7, 2018 at 6:15 am

    Wonderful pics Nan.

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  3. bethanyk says:
    May 8, 2018 at 12:45 am

    Nan! Your daughter is so beautiful. Radiant and beautiful. I love these photos!

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    • Nan Mykel says:
      May 8, 2018 at 3:02 am

      Go to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dV_crOmIps and see a Targus TG-42TT demonstrated–an extremely lightweight tripod that is the only one I can use because of the weight of the others. I wanted to say that much quickly because I lost the reply I was working on when I left for Google. I keep forgetting to push that little blank tab so I can return without going around the mulberry bush. I did not realize your daughter was suffering also. Know that I am one of the many you have helped. I hope the relatively inexpensive Targus will help you have many more successful photographing adventures. All the very best, Nan

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