4-17-1982 – I don’t like myself for not liking myself. In therapy I feel very exposed and vulnerable and got an image of myself as a mess of seaweed dashed against the rocks and left exposed to the birds to pick sea-grape from my hair. I remembered that one of the reasons I left therapy with D.T. was because I didn’t think he liked me, even disliked me. I realized I still feel “Dr. Analyst” at least respects me and my struggle. I couldn’t stay with any analyst that I believe dislikes me, either.
4-20-1982 – I imaged me in the womb eating my umbilical cord.