HOW DO I GET OUT OF WHO I AM?

Published July 19, 2017 by Nan Mykel

Nan with therapist; . Dreamers, 1899. John Brown.)

What poor therapist would want to get stuck with an 81 year old woman with degenerative arthritis, in slight cognitive decline trailing a Ph.D. in clinical psychology behind her?  (That’s my inner response to my suggestion I see a therapist).  As messed up as I am, I wouldn’t want to do that to anybody.

I’m lonely but don’t like to be around people, one child has disowned me, another avoids me, and I am responsible for bringing to life a Down Syndrome child.  I have sold two houses impulsively–losing considerable money–am avoiding 5 women who are desperately lonely and I can’t crank myself up to make a contribution to my fellow man/woman.  Not quite agoraphobic, I inch away on my walker, also avoiding my dirty dishes.  On top of that, my heart has turned to stone.  This is my truth; please don’t argue with me.

5 comments on “HOW DO I GET OUT OF WHO I AM?

  • I could write something just like this but with different details. Life is hard. The fact that you admit and allow yourself to acknowledge where you are is honorable. It doesn’t feel good to be where you are. I’m so sorry. The saddest thing for me to read was that your heart has turned to stone. I’m afraid that’s where mine is headed some days. Right now, it’s already pretty cold. You are not a bad person. Just know that.

    Like

  • Please share your own experiences here...

    Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

    WordPress.com Logo

    You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

    Twitter picture

    You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

    Facebook photo

    You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

    Connecting to %s

    This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

    Mock Paper Scissors

    The Internet's Band of Incorrigible Spitballers® and Cult Failure Since 2006

    Pacific Paratrooper

    This WordPress.com site is Pacific War era information

    Edge of Humanity Magazine

    An Independent Non-Discriminatory Platform With No Religious, Political, Financial, or Social Affiliations

    K E Garland

    Inspirational kwotes, stories and images

    Nguyễn Thị Phương Trâm

    Art and Literature Beyond Borders

    Thar She Blows!

    What if lesbians were insecure about the length of their fingers?

    Darcy Hitchcock

    Envision a sustainable future

    Barbara Crane Navarro

    Rainforest Art Project - Pas de Cartier !

    Kate Lunsford

    Reflective Writing

    Rosamond Press

    A Newspaper for the Arts

    Ned Hamson's Second Line View of the News

    Second Look Behind the Headlines - News you can use...

    Aging Capriciously

    Divergent Thoughts on Life, Love and Death

    Some View on the World

    With previous posting of "Our World" on Blogger

    Filosofa's Word

    Cogito Ergo Sum

    Trent's World (the Blog)

    Random Ramblings and Reviews from Trent P. McDonald

    Catxman's Cradle

    Catxman dances, Catxman spins around, leaps ....... // I sing a song, a song of hope, a song of looove -- a song of burning roses. / Synthesizer notes. // (c) 2021-22

    Mapping uncertainty

    When nothing is certain anything is possible

    %d bloggers like this: