TIRED OF BEING PARANOID

Because I had punched the “Text” button I suspected Word Press of refusing to let me post a photo of Trump.  I get phone calls from an unknown number on my landline and they say NANCY?  In a rather intimidating manner. Either I  one, hang up; two, say “Sorry she’s not here now”; three, roundup the energy to say “Who’s calling?”; once I truthfully said “Sorry, I’m still asleep.”  Sometimes they hang up when I say “Where are you calling from?”  The other day on the phone a woman talking too fast for me to process said “…..income tax….credit card….password….”  I said, “WHAT did you SAY?” and she hung up.

So now I’m struggling with a doozy I’d like your opinion or research or advice on.   I like and read AlterNet, but buried among the ads to the right of the screen after you open one of their stories is a very brief video clip that plays and replays without any obvious message.  For months it’s been playing without any identification of what’s happening.  A one point a circle flashes but you have to watch maybe several times to see it.  My paranoia suspects it’s a subliminal message “they” don’t want you to consciously see.  My non-paranoid self suggests it’s their way of counting something.  Would you visit and look and tell me what you think or know?  If it’s a subliminal message shouldn’t it be known?

I don’t believe I was paranoid prior to the current administration.  I kid you not.

 

 

 

About Nan Mykel

I used to think I would be a child prodigy, but then I got old. Formerly I had fantasies of rubbing elbows with cultural and academic leaders but that did not come to pass because I did not become a cultural or academic leader or any other kind of leader, for that matter. I am not even an "Alpha Dog," a term learned from a friend who had to become "Alpha Dog" in order to influence her own pet. (When gazes lock, she never looks away.) For years I expected to become a published author, but in passing I could not avoid the fact that I had little to contribute to the world's bulging dumpsters. I'm embarrassed to report that I also considered my primary process artistic productions powerful, rather than mildly neurotic. Which is not to say that I disrespect myself, only that I am beginning to doubt my potential for making a mark on the world. If I focus on strict self discipline I may be able to keep my garbage removed on a weekly basis, to keep the kitty box changed, the clothes cleaned, the dog watered, fed and walked, but that just catches me up to the starting mark again. When writing I physically grapple with words, wrestling them from their indifference into attempted chunks of awareness. I sit heavily on my chair; I breathe in artificially cooled air; my ear drums note the tap tap of the keyboard and the steady uninterrupted sound of the air conditioner, What is that sound? The roar of the ocean from 30 yards away...Inside, my thoughts are are balls in an electronic game machine, bouncing hither and yon from lever to lever. I am a little grim and intent until I recall a dream related by a black man in the prison where I once worked. He said that when he was a small boy, back home, he dreamed he was standing on his front porch pissing, and that he suddenly found himself pissing stars...
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2 Responses to TIRED OF BEING PARANOID

  1. RhScribbles says:

    Uh… I don’t know… put a piece of paper over that part of the screen. Sounds creepy.

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  2. Nan, I think the internet is full of subliminal messages. Recently there were many consecutive blogs discussing the colour pink – very different posts. Any site one visits probably has these. I think it’s supposed to be illegal but the various governments are probably doing it too. I know facebook does as a fact. Regarding the phone calls – you could probably get your phone company to block these calls; in fact there should be a feature on your phone that could do that. Write down the date and time you receive these calls so it can be traced. It sounds like spammers, wanting to get hold of your details. Never give anything over the phone. Visit your bank to make sure your account is safe.

    I visited Alternet.org but couldn’t see what you mean. My internet connection is so slow however whatever you are referring to couldn’t load. And no, I don’t think you are paranoid. Do what you can to protect yourself.

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