An Entire Life Trashed – By Anonymous

My mother eloped from her well-to-do family with an unemployed alcoholic who had been molested by his father.  My mother said I was born mad at her because I refused to nurse. There is a rumor that I was a breech birth. Her parents paid for me to stay in the hospital for one month to give my mother a rest (no bonding).  I was named for a rich great aunt on my father’s side in hopes she would name me in her will.  My parents left me alone in my crib when they went to church, and a distant relative of my father’s found me screaming and alone, and took me home with her. For a short while my parents thought I had been kidnapped, before the relative returned me.  Just barely able to walk, my parent’s inattention allowed me to toddle into the path of a truck, for which I received a spanking so severe that I went in the other room and held my breath until I fainted.

If I had been “trailing trains of glory” upon birth they were extinguished fairly rapidly.

About Nan Mykel

At 79, I was just about to stop keeping a journal, but that felt like accepting that growth was finished. I don't want to be finished, yet! I'm 80 now, and struggling to communicate with you, if you'll come and set awhile. P.S. My how time flies! I'm 82 now.
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5 Responses to An Entire Life Trashed – By Anonymous

  1. E says:

    You are not ‘anonymous’ to me Nan. I see you. And I see the hurt you’ve endured. Ouch.

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  2. Sautee Barb says:

    Can Anonymous write another side to this?

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  3. bethanyk says:

    Oh this pains my heart to read such abandonment and absence of love. How could one leave a child, blame a child, hurt a child.

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