Down down down for d’Verse

Why does the thought keep

going through my mind

that of all the sh*ole countries

we’ve become one of a kind?

About Nan Mykel

I used to think I would be a child prodigy, but then I got old. Formerly I had fantasies of rubbing elbows with cultural and academic leaders but that did not come to pass because I did not become a cultural or academic leader or any other kind of leader, for that matter. I am not even an "Alpha Dog," a term learned from a friend who had to become "Alpha Dog" in order to influence her own pet. (When gazes lock, she never looks away.) For years I expected to become a published author, but in passing I could not avoid the fact that I had little to contribute to the world's bulging dumpsters. I'm embarrassed to report that I also considered my primary process artistic productions powerful, rather than mildly neurotic. Which is not to say that I disrespect myself, only that I am beginning to doubt my potential for making a mark on the world. If I focus on strict self discipline I may be able to keep my garbage removed on a weekly basis, to keep the kitty box changed, the clothes cleaned, the dog watered, fed and walked, but that just catches me up to the starting mark again. When writing I physically grapple with words, wrestling them from their indifference into attempted chunks of awareness. I sit heavily on my chair; I breathe in artificially cooled air; my ear drums note the tap tap of the keyboard and the steady uninterrupted sound of the air conditioner, What is that sound? The roar of the ocean from 30 yards away...Inside, my thoughts are are balls in an electronic game machine, bouncing hither and yon from lever to lever. I am a little grim and intent until I recall a dream related by a black man in the prison where I once worked. He said that when he was a small boy, back home, he dreamed he was standing on his front porch pissing, and that he suddenly found himself pissing stars...
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25 Responses to Down down down for d’Verse

  1. Waltermarks says:

    There’s no difference at all, other than the means to provide. It seems though that there ought to be. There was once

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  2. lillian says:

    Wow! Just wow! You’ve nailed it….’nuff said!


  3. kanzensakura says:

    Yeppers. We have mos def become a crap hole and the shootings in Florida yesterday do not belie it.


  4. Frank Hubeny says:

    Nice sound. And the point is more effective because it is short.


  5. …because it’s true? of course it’s a generalisation and there are many a fine folk that side of the pond…but in some ways you appear to be losing your collective way.


  6. “we’ve become one of a kind” ain’t it the sad truth


  7. Nan Mykel says:

    Collective way may mean nuts. I agree I have lost all my ability to be calm and upbeat about what’s going on in Washington. Thanks for the caution.


  8. So saddening when all decency has been lost.


  9. lynn__ says:

    We’ve “flushed” foundational Judeo-Christian values…now we’re going down the tubes.


  10. Unfortunately, you aced this one, Nan.


  11. Agreed!! Nice work!


  12. Mish says:

    I am sickened by the mentality that has led the U.S. down this road. Makes me so grateful to live in Canada.


  13. Nan Mykel says:

    I can envy you, for now, anyway!



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