(Hieronymus Bosch, 1450- 1516)

Part of the program

was to trigger and split

those wounded by rape

and abuse.

It is almost impossible to

not be affected by

such twisted symbolism.

The murder one of it is

that you will not want it

until you want it.

You will adjust

to not feel

this much pain.

Your mind does all it can

to protect you,

distorting the unbearable

into some warped version

of acceptable.

Through the downpour

and over every bridge,

the soul cannot be destroyed

and so

you cannot ever lose who

you truly are.

You will

trying to control and enslave you

you will find strength and peace within

the sanctity of growth symbolism

that will help you resist

dissociation

and fade alters.

You will surface.

I felt sick today,

headachy and exhausted,

agitated.

I managed to avoid

the cops’ and the puppets’

ventilation burn and

parable threats.