My last child was born in 1971, a Down Syndrome child with a terminal (at that time) mitral heart defect. Trying to make sense of this unexpected event which was traumatic to me (for years I couldn’t mention it publicly without crying), I sought out a psychic reading in an attempt to make it fit into my experience of the world. I just came across something I wrote about the reading, written three years later:
My aura is muddy with fear
the psychic said, three years ago,
as I sat hesitant before him,
searching out dim forces of my destiny.
A two-fold karmic mission
lies in wait for me, he said.
Mine to scale the heights of consciousness
and mine to loosen passive bonds.
Through action shall I free the captive
Soul of eons whose receptive mold has
fashioned the aura which I wear,
passive becoming active, opening up
my third eye and our third world
in a consciousness both higher and raised.
Today is Monday, June 30, 1975 AD.
Three years hence where shall I be?*
__________
The psychic reader was an official minister in his other role, and when my father subsequently died I asked if he would conduct the funeral service and include a “life reading” for him, so I could better understand why my father lived the life he had.
It was clear the psychic/minister was scandalized at the suggestion he bring his psychic activities into the church in a funeral. I wondered how he put it all together in his head, or rather why he didn’t.
I reckon I’m going to have to work on freeing my captive soul the next time round.
(If nothing else works, a psychic reading can be briefly useful).
Love the poem!
LikeLike
Thanks for reading!
Love, Mom
LikeLike
I keep thinking about readings.
LikeLike
What are your thoughts?
LikeLiked by 1 person
Should I get one. How do I find a reputable reader?
LikeLike
If you are in extremist pain and need a balloon to hanq onto, yes. But now I think the minister just wanted to help traumatized individuals with his “readings.” If he really had put much stock in them himself he would hae welcomed them at a special funeral service, would he not? Well, maybe he was afraid of church politics, but it seems he could have provided some kind of quasi-memorial service at his own headquarters. But Ruth, if you’re really burning with curiosity, there’s no harm in it if you do it kinda for a lark. I don’t know your location, but most of us have a friend who is inclined in that way and has had a local experience. I guess I put more stock in my own unconscious now, which can be a good friend.
LikeLiked by 1 person
My reply got sent while proofreading. Sorry.
LikeLiked by 1 person