Were You Affected by Incest? I Was…

Published January 27, 2016 by Nan Mykel

If you’re 3 out of 4 females following or reading this  blog, then I’m happy that incest did not touch you.  The stats for males are less clear, perhaps because they fear it reflects on their manhood.

If you were exposed to incest, you may be like me–discounting the effect it had on you.  Men who commit incest, even those who were molested by a family member themselves, deny to themselves that it caused any psychological damage to them…or to their later victims, if there are any.  I always assumed that “this” is the real me; not the dregs left after the incest. I used  to treat incest offenders in prison and recall one  of the men denying that incest was harmful: “It happened too me and I turned out all right,”  (he said from his prison cell).

When I retired I decided  to write a  book about  incest, in an attempt  to illustrate from the research literature, and my own experience, the damage it causes.  I targeted it a little too much toward the offenders, I guess, because it hasn’t sold.

I was impressed that whether someone is judged to be damaged or not reflects the kind of measuring device used.  Some offenders said, “she wasn’t hurt. She got married, didn’t she?” or, “she went to college.”  I’d like to share with you some of the effects highlighted by David Finkelhor, all of which I eventually owned in myself:

Powerlessness.  The experience contributes to the survivor following a “victim” role later in life. Being trapped in the situation is part of this. How many teenaged suicides are due to being trapped and seeing no way out?

Betrayal.  The experience of being betrayed by someone you trust can’t help but leave the survivor less trusting in later intimate relations–or unable to engage in them. Or carrying a chip on your shoulder?

Damaged Goods.  It seems everything conspires to make the survivor feel dirty and damaged, especially carrying the burden of keeping the secret.

Sexualized.  Being introduced to sex in a deviant, underhanded, secretive manner developmentally limits the child. Developmental stages are a natural unfolding of growing and maturing and when a stage is blocked, there is a loss.

Another effect which Finkelhor does not specify is the defense mechanism of introjection, in which powerful aggressive figures are incorporated into their victim’s psyche, resulting in self hate and a tremendous  ambivalence in feeling toward the perpetrator. This is referred to  as the “Trauma Bond,” and often results in the victim seeking  out other abusers.

Another eye-opener from the research for my book was evidence that the victims who were first “incested” before the age of nine tend to be more depressed, while those first incested after nine tend to carry more anger.

The grief experienced during healing almost always focusses on the loss of “what might have been.”

The preceding is just a nutshell of info discussed in the book “FALLOUT: A Survivor Talks to Incest Ofenders,” available from Amazon.  Sorry I’m light in references here, but they are available either in the book or by e-mailing me: nmykel@gmail.com.

Strides toward therapeutic relief for survivors have been made in recent years, and are discussed at length in the section on “Getting to Okay.”  And, there is always strength in mutual support.  I have come across several survivors working on their healing via their blogs. I will try and add to these resources.

9 comments on “Were You Affected by Incest? I Was…

  • All of the points you raised resonate with me. Support and understanding from within the family and from friends are very thin on the ground. They shy away from the topic, expect one to pull oneself together, and prefer to not discuss the topic as it is so extreme. It’s difficult for so called survivors. I suppose I call myself one: I get up in the morning, do what has to be done to eat, suffer sleep deprivation (some times are better than others), paint (seldom these days), write fairly well, and the gardening is rather good for me. That most men use sex as a weapon to betray, intimidate, scare and hurt girls and women is going to take a long time to eradicate. Not until organised religion, written and practised by the patriarchy, is changed, will there be relief for girls, boys and women. The stigma, the shame, the humiliation, is devastating. I’m at a low point so it is hard for me at present.

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  • Thank you for sharing this! I’ve read a lot of Patrick Carnes work on Trauma Bonds. I believe he may have first coined the term? I was “incested” at age 8 by my brother, I made my first suicide attempt at age 18. I believe I was depressed for many years prior. I have an eating disorder, a history self-injury, and carry a tremendous amount of toxic shame. So glad to have found your blog!

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    • Thanks for your response. Welcome to my blog, but I don’t talk too much about incest on the front page. There’s more on My Books and …Incest..and my book, which in all modesty I think is great, but few want to read about it, even (especially?) survivors of incest. But some researchers have found that the better survivors can understand and “make sense” out of it, the better off they are. Otherwise, it’s kinda like having an everpresent shadow always lurking over you. If you’re broke I can send you a Pdf copy as soon as my helper comes. I don’t entirely understand how to work sending pdfs.
      For my part, it’s been easy to live a depressed life without ever knowing it. I’m fairly avoidant, still, and afraid to confront. But I have great plans for the next lifetime!

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      • Thank you, my therapist recommended a book for me to read called,”The body keeps the score” . I would be absolutely interested in reading your PDF.

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      • I guess I need your e-mail address. I forgot to recommend Survivors of Incest Anonymous (I think that’s the correct name) which was enormously helpful years ago, until the leaders moved away. A wonderful modified 12-step program. I need to wait til my helper comes again.

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